06/11/2016
They still want her contact info?
Heh.
No more letting them copy my homework next time.
07/05/2016
I dreamed about her, and now the sheets are dirty.
07/06/2016
I'm so disgusting. She'll definitely hate me.
07/07/2016
Sis... Sis...
07/09/2016
I am a sick person...I feel dirty and impure.
07/12/2016
Sis, can you please stop smiling at me?
I can't take it anymore.
07/15/2016
I hope she knows, but I hope she never knows.
07/20/2016
I can't control myself, Abbey. I'm sorry.
08/02/2016
Not seeing her makes me overthink...
The necklace looks nice, sister. If you knew the truth, would you forgive me?
08/09/2016
I want to know everything about her. If I didn't know her whereabouts, I would go crazy, right?
Fortunately.
09/07/2016
I don't want to be her brother.
09/10/2016
I don't want to be her brother.
Honestly.
10/28/2016
"Emotion overrides reason; this is the reason for the evils of the world."
01/01/2017
Spent New Year's Day with her.
06/20/2017
If you always suppress yourself, you'll end up depressed.
So... even if... it's okay, right?
Sister.
07/08/2017
Again and again.
Indeed, falling into depravity isn't scary; what's terrifying is being fully aware of it.
08/04/2017
She really likes to mess with my head.
Heh, I like it too.
……
09/05/2017
Went out drinking with friend again.
Took her home drunk.
Hmm, let me think.
How should I... collect payment this time?
09/06/2017
Indeed, it's like jelly.
Soft, and sweet too.
Peyton, you're truly a pervert.
05/10/2017
I don't want to stay in the dorms.
If I get hurt, I wouldn't have to go to school, right?
……
Sometimes I really feel like there's no hope for me.
10/06/2017
It doesn't hurt.
She really cares about me.
11/02/2017
I noticed Abbey's reflection on the car window; this way, I can keep watching her without being noticed.
Sis, when will I be able to openly look at you?
11/07/2017
Because you're my sister, I like someone older than me.
Abbey, I hope you understand my hints, yet I also hope you don't.
What should I do? There's no turning back for me now.
I can't let go of you anymore, Sister.
11/12/2017
I have to admit, I wrote down a lot of things with the hope that one day you might read my diary.
And then I'll tell you, Abbey, see, I didn't want it to be like this either. I struggled for a long time but finally decided to love you in this twisted way.
11/13/2017
It would be great if you understood my contradictions.
Why not open it and take a look?
No matter the outcome, whether you reject me, hit me, or scold me, it's all fine.
Abbey, I'm really about to lose control.
11/15/2017
Brother-in-law.
…
Brother-in-law.
11/17/2017
I'm so tired.
I know I shouldn't like my sister.
But I really can't help it. I have no other choice, Sis. I really don't.
11/18/2017
Abbey, if you ever find out, please don't find me disgusting.
Please.
…
I'm going crazy.
11/19/2017
...But so what?
Let me bear all the sins.
Sis, you don't need to know anything.
12/20/2017
Happy Birthday.
Peyton's eighteenth birthday will be spent with Abbey.
12/21/2017
That woman's intention to crash into me was obvious.
I wanted to meet you clean and unharmed.
If only I hadn't seen that red dot getting further and further away...
12/23/2017
Whatever...
Anyway, I won't let you leave.
Even if you hate me.
12/24/2017
If you leave, I think I would slit my pulsing veins without hesitation.
Abbey, don't leave me.
Without you, I might as well be dead.
……
I'm beyond saving now.
12/25/2017
Sis, if you're angry, just hit me.
Anyway, I won't stop.
12/27/2017
Why say it's ugly?
It's just... too big.
Alright, it is a bit scary.
I didn't want it to be like this either.
01/01/2018
My New Year's gift is you.
02/23/2018
That bay window in the room finally came in handy.
04/07/2018
I really don't want to stop.
I don't want to go to school at all...
07/09/2018
Abbey, I know you'll read this.
I love you.
Everything is my fault.
At this point, I closed the diary and found a paternity test report in the desk drawer.
I picked it up, didn't look at the results, and tore it to pieces.
The torn paper mixed with the tissues in the trash can. The door opened, someone wrapped their arms around my waist, and I raised an eyebrow, asking, "You're back." "Abbey, I'm back."
Gentle kisses fell on my cheek, and he said, "Mm-hmm."
He held me tightly, and I would never struggle, just as he would never let go.
"Sis... Sis... say you love me."
Alright.
Let's love each other, no matter what.
