"You knew that wasn't called for, we have seen each other a few years ago when you needed some solutions to your problems,
you shouldn't have cried like that if not for any reason, but, for the reason that your child was there staring at you,
What do you think she will think of you now? She will look at you as an irresponsible father that cries any how like any house like a kid," pablo said to Julius,
He still can't believe that act that Julius pulled out in front of his wife and daughter,
He was also surprised because he could not believe his friend would ever cry like a baby, among the both of them Julius was know to have the strongest her and he hardly get emotional to the hospital extent of crying like a kid,
He did not do such things when they were young so why on earth did he start to do it at a mature age,
"I bet she won't, she's my daughter and we understand each other very well,
I Know it doesn't take her time to get very irritated by something and also the same way it doesn't take her time so forgive and forget about something,
she is my daughter and my only child,
I have read out so well, before I take an action,
I do think well about every single action I take, I do not just jump into something that I would regret or have a second thought about." Julius said as he praised himself.
"Ohhh my goodness! Look at him as he praises himself, you never seem to have changed,
You still that Julius I used to know, always full of himself,
But, I am really surprised about how you could really do what you did earlier,
If I'm not mistaken, last time I checked,
we met each other when you wanted to help you fight against that beast that was really a pain in your ass,
so I'm really surprised why you cried like that because; all those years you never felt so emotional when you saw me,
you never even behaved like we had so much was together, so I'm really surprised why now,
Why all the acts? Why did you suddenly start to remember those days?
Did anyone remind you to remember about your past? Or did you see any family members alive?
please if you have, talk to me and tell me, I really missed my family a lot,
"This did today, was what I expected you to have done the first day we met after those years you disappeared,
but, you didn't, Instead you began to behave like do we had no past together,
" Welcome brother, how have you been?" That was all you a said I was surprised at that, but, I decided not to allow it in my show in my facial expression because I believed that people can change at any time, I am not you and you are not me, and also at the same time I can't make you you do what you don't want to do,
I thought you have changed and you are no longer the person that I used to know, I began to believe that maybe all those days you have been abroad have really changed you in the aspect of not to remember where you came from,
he didn't even try explaining to me why you suddenly left,we do see each other and we have been handling a lot of problems together,
but, he never tend to tell me why you disappeared all of a sudden,
please tell me, and I am really surprised why you are bringing the past which I have even forgotten,
I tried my best to leave strong all these years and never to remember all these things of the past, because when ever I remember them I never tend to stop, it keeps coming over and over again,
And whenever this past memories runs through my brain, I give me a lot of head,
This head aces do really last for a very long time, it doesn't allow me to think straight and it also doesn't allow me reasons think like I use to do,
And the worst part of it is that it doesn't take a month or two months, this headache that over 6/7 months,
The last time it happened to me, it was over one year,
And what made it go was because, there was an urgent occasion that really took over, all my attentions,
I could not take the whole thing on my head,
I could only, handle one thing at a time, and that was because, I am still recovering from how the past had really treated me,
I am not blaming you, I really need to make it clear to you that, that past troubling me because of you,
If not for the fact that you abandon all your responsibilities, I would not have to suffer from it.
but, as the case may be, you have indirectly placed me in a complete state of flashback, I am now thinking about those days, and how all my families died in the war,
I am now trying to blame you for making me remember my past, I am just telling you my present state and some sort of short pain I am really in right now,
But that's if you even care,
Well let's just forget about that part, I did not also forget that I must always thank you because; even though you were kind of reckless and heartless from what you have done to me and you people in the past,
you have really helped me a lot in the present days,
I really thank you a lot for helping me fight over those fearless beast that always attached me those days and I really appreciate all you kindness to me because; you have never asked me for anything in return,
you have always help me fight all these battles till the end, and I don't know how I'm a will pay you for your kindness to me,
I am just using this great opportunity to let you know that I am indeed grateful to you, for all the kindness and love you have shown upon me during these present days." Pablo said to Julius, as he gave a sad face to that which really proves how unhappy he is.
"No no no no! I feel so unhappy seeing you do that you shouldn't be doing, I should be the one begging you for your forgiveness and also looking for a way to repay you in order for you to show your abundant forgiveness upon me,
I don't know how or what I can use to please him because; I know deep down in my heart that I have really offended you and I have offended you in anyway that every other person that's way to be on your shoes would never forgive me even though I was to sacrifice my blood or someone else blood,
Although, there was also a long story behind me leaving you like that but, it is a story that I can not just explain how it happened so quick that was why I couldn't tell you I didn't mean to behave like I have forgotten about the past we had together,
Why wouldn't I remember my own brother? who is even more related to me than people who also have my blood in their veins, what we share was more than an ordinary blood,
You were even closer to me than my own sibling that I called my blood,
Please Pablo, I'm begging you for god sake,
do not ever tell me things like this,
it's always judge me inside and make my conscious devour my heart whenever you beg me,
I haven't even done anything that is is enough to repay all to help you for how wicked I have been to you and all the villages in the past,
And what really surprises me the most is that you never even tried to remind me despite how painful it was,
I believe your family is doing great right?
All this happened because of one man,
if I were to be someone else I did this horrible stuff to, he or she would have done something very terrible to me
but you, you still work with me you never felt disgusted and annoyed anytime you were with me,
You never even displayed to me any attributes of an angry,
You have always cooperated with me, knowing fully well that I am a very horrible person a very cold blooded humans, that only cares about himself and pleases himself before he pleases orders,
I have no rights and I dare not plead to you for forgiveness because; what I have done is something that I can never be forgiven for doing,
it is something no one would easily forgive anyone for doing." Julius said.
"Hahaha! I understand you my friend,
but, it's all in the past now, there's nothing we can do to bring the past back and make some corrections,
whatever have happened have happened and can never change,
only the gods have a reason or the answer to why all those horrible things have happened," Pablo said.
"Please forgive me my brother, the story gets really hot and touch me the most, when ever I remember that of your parents,
I never meant their death to come please, forgive me?
And how come all of them died and no one was even found because; from what I heard you were the only survivor from that village," Julius said.
"I don't know how true that is because, I saw a lot of people escape,
I saw a lot of people beg for help and some part of their bodies were cut into pieces,
they cried and cried for help but, no one came to their rescue,
all our plans were all shattered to the arches,
I search for you, on the high mountains where you normally go when you want to have a time for yourself,
When I got there, the place was all cold and dried nobody was there,
I could not even find a trace of you, then I decided to go to the high meditation forest,
I remember you always go there when you needed some peace of mind,
I spent five days I that meditation forest, meditating and looking waiting and hoping that you would come back at anytime,
After those five days of waiting, I didn't see you, I could no longer wait because the entire community was already my responsibility, and I cannot be of for no reason or else the people would start to lose trust in us,
The would begin to believe that we are no longer capable of handling our responsibilities,
They could even go as far as laying curses on us,
When I got back it was like a fire on the mountain,
This fire was more than one fire, It was even hotter than the volcano, the Kenya northerners so eager to claim our lands,
When I asked for an explanation, they began to explain to me that this people did want to let us go,
.they said we should call out leaders, they searched for me and you but, we were all gone,
"When I heard this I was so angry because, it was because of you I left the people,
But, what baffles me the most is that this northerners that hart come into our land to claim that we are supposed to be under them are from the, North and we are from the south,
I wonder when did the Northerner and the southerners began to get along,
But, it is all in the past now, all my brothers are dead and there is nothing that could bring them back to life,
I am now alone in this life and there is no one by my side, I am now completely Indeed left alone in this miserable life of mine.
