Married in spite of me
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Part 2 chapter 23: the final
A year later
Mariam
It's crazy how things can change in such a short time, a year ago if someone had told me that I would be the fulfilled and happy woman that I am, I would not have believed it; the future looked so dark for me, I had lost hope and resigned myself to living a life of suffering and dying unhappy but God had another plan for me, he tested me, so tested to test my faith, even if I lost hope of finding happiness at this time of my life I always believed in him and my reward was beyond my expectations
Today I am happy next to my husband and God bless me with two wonderful children who have just been born, I certainly waited a long time but he is so just God, he gave me twins two little beings that I love more than anything, I'm so happy right now that I feel like I'm in a dream and I can wake up at any time so I'm enjoying every moment spent with my family
Today, apart from my husband and my children, the only family I have is Khalil and Nabila, these two people who worked so that I could experience this happiness, Khalil has become like this big brother that I never never had, he wanted me to stay with them until I got married to Akim, it was out of the question for me to live alone or to live with Akim before marriage, and it's up to him. asked for my hand so we could get married; and to say that some time ago I wanted to scratch his eyes out, his frankly makes us laugh when we think back to his; I thank God so much for having put these people on my path, people who love me as if I were part of their family, they love me with a true love and without ulterior motives
As for my mother, the only family I thought I had in this world, she left us a few months ago, she contacted me because she wanted to talk to me, I was surprised but I am still go see her
Flashback
There's a lady who just called me telling me that my mother was seriously ill and wanted to see me at all costs, I'm with Nabila so she offered to take me to the clinic, I admit that I am really worried, even if we have our differences she remains my mother and I love her beyond all
Nabila: I'll wait for you here, go ahead
Me: ok
I walk towards the receptionist who shows me my mother's room, when I enter my mother's room, I see her lying there, her frail body and connecting to a lot of devices, which ring again and again in my ears, the silence in this room causing the noise of these devices to connect to my mother to echo in my mind
I walk over to her bed and sit next to her, running my hands through her hair.
Me: Mom!!
Mom in a barely audible voice: My daughter, are you there?
Me: yes mom I'm here, why didn't you call me sooner? what are you suffering from ?
Mom: it's not important, forgive me my daughter, forgive me for everything I've done to you
Me: calm down mom, you don't have to apologize to me, calm down
Mom: you have to forgive me for everything I did to you my daughter, if you knew everything I did, you have to forgive me because I don't have much time left
Me: I am the mother, you will not die Incha Allah, we will treat you and you will recover
Mom: no you can't do anything for me except forgive me, I have cervical cancer I'm in the last stage
Me (bursting into tears): no mom, you can't leave, I still need you
Mom: you're doing much better without me, you don't need a toxic and bad person like me in your life, I'm so sorry for everything I put you through, I was blinded by jealousy and hate
Me: what are you talking about mother?
Mom: I am not your mother Mariam, I raised you, fed you, but I did not carry you in my womb, I did not give you life
Me: why do you say his mom?
mom: because it's true, when I got married to your father, we tried by all means to have children in vain, he started by going away from me, he came home late at night and treated like shit i had no choice but to suffer because i knew for a fact the problem was with me but what really hurt me about the story is that your dad didn't couldn't get a woman outside he preferred to impregnate my maid, the girl I brought from the village to come and work for me spread her legs for my husband, my husband to the point of becoming pregnant with him; I of course kicked him out of my house there was no way I would keep such a traitor in my house
your father followed her, he preferred to follow his master and leave me his own wife, I stayed in my home waiting for him to come to his senses one day and come back to me who is his wife, I waited a long time and one fine morning he came back but he was not alone, he had a baby in hand and told me that you were his child, he wanted me to take care of you, he wanted me to raise the one which was the fruit of her betrayal, that I live with her all the rest of my life because her mother had died in childbirth, he forced me to live with you, to take care of you, to change your diaper and feed you, every time i woke up next to you my hatred increased, despite the fact that i took care of you he treated me like a stranger in my own house, i'm not trying to justify myself but he to push to hate you, I suffered, suddenly, when he died I gave you in marriage to this man, I was jubilant inside when I saw you suffer, this man haunt that put me through hell he wasn't there anymore, he had to turn in his grave seeing his daughter suffer without being able to do anything to help her, it was my way of doing it punish and unfortunately I hurt an innocent
You did not ask to be born of betrayal and today I would like you to forgive me before I leave
After his story, I couldn't get a word out, the tears kept flowing from my eyes, of course I paid for my parents' pots, but I can't help but put myself in her place and to realize all the harm they did to her and all her suffering, how can I blame her if it was my parents who made her the woman she has become
Me: Mom, who am I to judge you? only the lord can do it, as i told you i don't hold any grudge against you mom, i forgave you a long time ago
Mom touching my belly: may Allah give you children with a pure heart like yours and make you happy with your husband
I was so amazed by what she just said, could she possibly know that I'm pregnant?
Mom: don't be surprised my daughter, even if I have never carried life I know how to recognize a pregnant woman, be happy my daughter, I would have liked to have had more time but I feel that my end is near, that Allah bless you
Me (the broken voice): mom
I stay with her, I visited her every day in the hospital, I introduced her to Akim, Khalil, and Nabila, she gave them to ask for forgiveness, and told us to always put God before everything, that we remove jealousy and resentment from our heart, because these feelings make the person who wears it suffer more
Unfortunately a few days after my mom passed away, I keep all the last moments we spent together in my heart and I will cherish them until the end of my life,
End of flashback
Nabila
What can I say except thank you, thank you for the life of my family, thank you for my life, thank you for the second chance I had, thank you for knowing this wonderful man that I live with, this wonderful man who shares my life my husband
I understood that in life nothing happens by chance, everything happens for a reason, sometimes you wonder why me when things don't turn out the way you want, but why not me? why should such things happen to others and not to us?
When I returned to Togo and I had to accept this marriage proposal I thought it was the worst thing that could happen to me, I was at that moment of my life so unhappy, thought it was a punishment because I may have done something wrong in another life, not knowing that marriage would be the greatest of my achievements
I knew a Khalil who was not super nice to me, an unfaithful Khalil, a Khalil who rejected me, a Khalil whom I wanted to hurt, but with patience, time and a little love this man has become the most beautiful thing that has ever happened to me, a man without whom today my life will no longer have meaning, a man who gave me the most beautiful gift my son and another in progress , what more can I say except that I am the happiest woman in the world
A few months ago, our project came to life, we have just moved into our new house and a new baby in progress, I would have liked to still experience a denial of pregnancy but this is not the case, this pregnancy really i feel like i'm paying for having an easy pregnancy for my first baby
Khalil joining me in bed: my heart, is it better this morning?
Me: it can be ok
Khalil returning with a tray: I brought you your breakfast
I don't know exactly what's on this set but all it makes me want to vomit, I'm violently nauseous and I run to relieve myself in the bathroom
Me (outgoing): my heart please take this tray away from me
He brings the tray back to the bedside table, I know I'm giving him a hard time but it's not my fault
Khalil: I brought you your fruit and a glass of milk as you asked me
Me: sorry but I don't want it anymore
I lie down in my bed and he comes to sit next to me stroking my back
Khalil: do you want me to bring you something else?
Me: no sweetheart, I'm not hungry
Khalil: you have to make an effort for the baby and yourself please, in addition if mom learns that you have not eaten anything she may come upstairs and force you to eat
My mother in law has been coming here every morning since she found out that I am pregnant, with the help of Adja they are giving me a hard time, I know they just want everything to go well but everything I want is to lie in my bed all day and sleep, I want to gain strength since tonight we are organizing a small party with the family to welcome Mariam's babies
Me: give me time to take a shower and we go downstairs, I want to see where the preparations are
A few hours later
All the guests are already starting to come, my mother-in-law is taking care of Mayer, tonight my desire as a pregnant woman was to make love with my husband, like a good husband he did me all the good he could with a lot of love, strangely instead of being tired I feel like I'm getting a boost, he helps me put on my dress and we join all the others in the living room
Everyone was present, Abdel, his wife and their children, my mother-in-law, my father-in-law and my brothers-in-law, Adja, Mayer, Mariam, Akim and the twins, my aunt, Razak and Malika, all our relatives were present to welcome newborns
When I see the room I see that there are only happy people, and it fills my heart so much with joy, we had to go through a lot of things to get here, it has not always been easy, that won't be every day either but as long as we're united everything will be fine
Malika gave birth to a pretty little girl whose name is mouslihatou like our grandmother, she started working in one of Khalil's companies, our relationship has improved significantly which really fills my heart with joy, as for Aziz and Razak I always feel tensions, we can clearly see that they tolerate each other just for us and me that's fine with me
I was sitting looking around the room I see that everyone was carried away in a big discussion, Khalil who took care of the children, he is such a good father, sometimes I feel bad for him to have separated from our son, I wonder how I could think of a moment in my life that my child could not count on him, he is an extraordinary father and such a good husband
Mariam bringing me back to earth: we know it belongs to you, stop looking at it like a steak ready for the fire
Me (giggling): I can't help it, I love him so much
Mariam: it is obvious that you are madly in love with each other
Me: tell me how's it going with the twins?
Mariam: it's quite complicated but Akim really helps me a lot
Me: Masha Allah, may Allah facilitate
Mariam: amine
Me: I want us to organize a prayer session all together to thank God for all he does for us, look at us today, when we met we were two bruised and injured women , who would have thought that we would have found happiness
Mariam: I agree with you, let me take care of everything and I'll give you the program
I take her in my arms before telling her "I'm so happy for you, for us, I can't thank heaven enough for putting you on my path, you were my rock when I thought I was alone, you been a sister to me when you didn't even know me, you gave me work when I had no qualifications to do it, you made me so much, may Allah reward you and your whole family , even if we do not have the same blood you are my sister and I will always be there for you, I hope you know it; I love you so much" she tightens her hug, she didn't need to say anything she transmits everything to me through this hug she gives me
We were talking for a while then I see Khalil headed for the balcony
Me: I'm coming...
Mariam: I hope you're not going to let us crash here to get you laid
Me (giggling): you never know, the desires of pregnant women don't warn you...
Me (arriving on the terrace): what are you doing here alone
Khalil turning to me: you are so beautiful you know?
Me: are you sure you think I'm beautiful with this belly that's starting to round out and my everyday bad mood? I'm really sorry to bother you so much
Khalil: I love doing all these little things for you and it will never tire me because it is an honor to live all these moments by your side
He takes me by the waist before putting a kiss on the back of the neck, we stay there contemplating this beautiful sky before he turns me so that I can face him
Khalil: you are the most beautiful thing that ever happened to me, you gave meaning to my life, I love you so much
Me: I love you too sweetheart
With these words we kiss, I feel our hearts beat together, right now we are one, I can say today what it is to give, to receive love, I can say how much love can change a person's life, because it changed my life, even if it won't be easy every day as long as I'm by his side everything will be fine...
END
Special dedication to all women who have been tested, to all battered women, and to all women who live in difficult situations, it's just for a while
