Married in spite of me
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Part 2 chapter 5
Nabila
Today I have an appointment with a very important client, so I prepare carefully, I choose to put on a sky blue trouser suit, I leave my tuft as it is accompanied by colored sandal heel shoe black, this morning I don't feel like doing my makeup at all, I'm just putting on a gloss without forgetting to apply a good-looking cream, I've really had a bad head lately, and I don't feel very well, I have weird belly words, I don't know what I ate and it's been going on for a few days already
I'm going to meet our client, who agrees to let us do the interior design of his entire office, when I talk about the office, it's his whole company, it's a new company he wants to set up. so it's really a big project for us, I show him some of my sketches and to see his look I have the impression that he is conquered
He gives me free rein to choose what I want as decoration, I hope to live up to his expectations, we say goodbye and I take the road to the office
Arrival I go straight to Mariam's office
Me (entering the office): hello my darling
Mariam: hello miss, go sit down, how was your meeting?
Me: everything went well, we have the project
Mariam: are you serious?
Me: of course, all that remains is to make the plans and the estimate
Mariam: Well, it's news that should be celebrated here.
Me: well not a little
When she passes me I see a mark on her arm it was really weird, what is even weirder is the way she jumps when I ask her the question
Mariam coming to her senses: eeuuhhh… I slipped in the kitchen yesterday, I'm so clumsy
Me (curious): you don't often have your head in the air as far as I know, I hope you didn't have anything to break
Mariam taking out the champagne: not at all, don't worry
I have the impression that the pain is increasing more and more but I'm trying to control myself, it's time I found myself a product, I can't stand it at all
Mariam pours us the champagne, we cudgel together, when I bring the glass to my lips the frequency of the pain increases at that moment, making me screech.
Mariam: what's wrong?
Me (caressing my stomach): I have a terrible stomach ache, it's really unbearable
Mariam: what did you eat?
Me: I haven't eaten anything, I feel like I have cramps, it's really horrible
Mariam putting down her glass: get up, we're going to the hospital
We arrive at the hospital after long and interminable minutes later, we are immediately taken care of
Doctor: what did you take?
Me: nothing, I really hurt
I am taken to a room where there was a bed and a screen, I lie down and he puts a transparent and super cold cream on my stomach
Me: what are you doing to me?
Doctor: I'm going to give you an ultrasound.
Me: give me something to help me feel better, I can't take the pain anymore, it's really horrible, what's happening to me?
The doctor doesn't say anything anymore, he turns on the screen and puts a device on my stomach at some point I start having some weird and regular noises
The doctor: as I suspected, you are in labor madam
Me: in labor how?
The doctor: you are about to have your baby
Me: sorry?
Mariam: are you on doctor? she is not pregnant
Me: what are you talking about? how can i be pregnant and not know it? for nine without suspecting anything? are you kidding me or what? Mariam where did you take me? they can't help me here, take me somewhere they can help me
I get up and get out of bed, when I take my first step I had a new cramp that puts me on my knees
Me: oooh shit, what's happening to me
The doctor turning to Mariam: she is about to give birth, we are going to install her, you must go and get the basic necessities
Mariam: I don't know what to look for, I've never had children
The doctor: go to the reception we will make a list for you there
Mariam turning to me: I won't be long, I'm coming
Me: but please don't leave me here alone
She runs out leaving me alone with this doctor who annoys me at the highest point, I'm so confused, I hate, how can such a thing be possible? is my past catching up with me? Why do weird things always happen to me?
Mariam
I'm so confused I can't even put a word to the situation she made it clear to me that her husband took her to a pregnancy test before kicking her out of their house I hurry to go to the reception take the list, I search on the internet or find a store where I can have everything I need and I hit the road, when I arrive I try to take everything a new mother may need since I I'm sure she has nothing prepared, I'm taking clothes in nude tones when the baby is born, we'll be back
I'm so nervous that I take everything the good lady offers me in addition to the list I took at the hospital, you never know, they could have forgotten something, when I get out of there I find a another shop where I can find spare clothes for Nabila and I go back to the hospital
I have not seen the time pass I have spent at least two good hours shopping when I arrive at the hospital I enter with two bags one for baby and one for mom
When I arrive at the reception I give a bag to a nurse and they take me to the waiting room, I heard her cries since then and I admit that I am really scared, I really took God to make sure that everything is going well, half an hour later the doctor comes to inform me that she has just had her baby and that it was a little boy, I literally jump for joy, I take the doctor in my arms without realize it
Me (loosening my grip): I'm so sorry
The doctor: don't worry, we'll get them ready to take them to their room, we also need a change of clothes for the mother
Me (handing him a bag): there are his things here, thank you very much doctor God bless you
Doctor: please
A nurse takes the bag from my hands, they disappear, I sit back on my chair waiting to be able to meet the newborn and also see our new mother
I admit that for a moment I had a little twinge in my heart, I too have been secretly dreaming of having a child for years and I have the impression that I will never realize my dream of becoming a mother one day.
Flashback
Wedding day
Today I got married to a man against my will all its just because my mother decided it, I'm still a little girl who doesn't know much about life yet but here I am united forever to a man for whom i feel nothing
In the evening I really dread what will happen, will I lose my virginity with a man I don't love? a man I just met? a stranger ? I don't see the difference with a rape, sorry if people think that I am minimizing this horrible act of rape but that's what I feel deep inside right now
I sit on the bed dressed in my beautiful white dress, I take off the veil which I place next to me on the bed and I scan the room with my gaze, it is a very large and beautiful room in the middle of which is a king size bed, carefully decorated with flowers and accompanied by a good smell probably coming from the lit candles
Gustave opening the door in bulk: what are you doing?
Me (a little embarrassed): I was waiting for you
Gustave displaying a smile in the corner: get up and take off this dress
I had my heart beating so fast that I feel like I'm going to pass out, I get up without saying a word and I gently take off without damaging this dress for fear of damage, she must have very expensive
When I finish taking off my dress, he walks towards me and goes around without forgetting to look at me, when he finishes he comes and stands in front of me before giving me this sentence that I will never forget. my life
Gustave: get dressed, you disgust me to the highest point, even naked you will not make me want, neither to me nor to any other man elsewhere on earth, I think I really wasted my money with you
I was so shocked that I stood there watching him spout all his nonsense on me
Gustave screaming: out of my sight
I jump when he shouts at me and I run into the toilets or I lock myself up, nobody had ever been so mean to me, that day a part of my heart was quite satisfied that he didn't want to touch me but what I didn't know is that this day marked the beginning of my ordeal
The more the years pass the more I want to become a mother but it's impossible how can we conceive if we don't make love? I will never be able to know this joy which is to carry life, as long as I will be with this man I will never have a child
End of flashback
A nurse comes up to me and takes me to their room, when I arrive she was sound asleep, and the baby was lying in his little crib, he was awake and wiggling all over the place, I walk towards him, I take it in my arms and rock it
Me (whispering): welcome to the world my little darling, I'm aunty Mariam, I'm very happy to meet you
I talked to him until he fell asleep, I sat there until Nabila woke up
Me: how are you feeling?
Nabila: I'm really tired
Me: it's normal, you did a great job, it's beautiful
Nabila turning to her baby: so far I can't believe that it was me who gave birth to her, it's a bit of a weird feeling
Me: don't worry, you'll get used to it very soon, what do you plan to call him?
Nabila: I don't know yet, I haven't had time to think
We stay there, chat for a while then I order her a meal and I make sure that she takes at least half of the meal, I have to leave in a hurry, it is past 9 p.m. I feel that I am going to have trouble tonight
Me: I have to go, see you tomorrow morning, in the drawer there are boxes of milk, and baby bottles, and in the other drawer bottles of water, I will ask that we assign you a nurse who will help you tonight
Nabila: thank you very much for everything
Me (kissing him): Please take good care of my nephew
She smiles at me and I leave the room, I give instructions and I take the road, at this hour I'm really afraid to get home, Gustave won't let this gap pass...
