Married in spite of me
Author
Part 2 chapter 3
Nabila
I've been working with Mariam for a few months now, I can tell you that she's really a beautiful person, she has become an important part of my life, especially since at the moment I have isolated myself from everyone she brings to me. lots of comfort and support
I would say that my work doesn't really leave me much time to be bored, it really takes up a lot of space in my life and what's more, it has allowed me not to sink into depression, I won't say that I don't think more about him but I'm starting to get used to the situation and in the months to come I'm sure everything will be better
My aunt and I still haven't seen each other but we talk on the phone all the time, I'm afraid that if my aunt comes to see me my mother-in-law will find me and that's the last thing I want , yes she is still my beautiful so far I am still not free from this cynical man
I remember that a few months ago at each of our conversations my aunt wouldn't let go of me, she wanted me to call my mother-in-law at all costs because she wanted to talk to me, at one point I gave in
Flashback
Today I promised my aunt that I would call Khalil's mom just to make her happy and that she would stop putting pressure on me, I'm really apprehensive about making this phone call but I have to take my courage see you tomorrow and let me do it
I take my phone and make the call, praying with all my might that she doesn't answer, on the first ring no answer on the second I hear her voice on the line
Yemi: Hail!
Me: hello mom
Yemi: hello my daughter, how are you? is everything ok on your side? i was so worried about you
Me: I'm fine, I hope the same on your side too
Yemi: when are you coming back my daughter?
Me: Are you aware of the situation between your son and me?
Yemi: yes I know, but all he could do was because he was angry
Me: is he the one who sent you?
Yemi: no but I'm sure he won't be against you coming back
Me trying to take all my calm: mom I consider you a lot but I don't intend to come back, he knew full well what he was doing and he's not a child so that we try to excuse him for each of his nonsense
Yemi: I'm not trying to cover it up or excuse what he did because I know he's gone too far but I really would like you to take all the time you need to try to digest what happened
Me: Can I ask you a question?
Yemi: yes my daughter is going
Me: if the situations were reversed, if I had been your daughter would you accept that I go back to a man who had to treat me like a nobody, a man who claims to be my husband but who dared to call me whore, he went so far as to pay me for the time I had to spend with him, he threw me out of his house like a clean evil without even giving me the opportunity to defend myself, if I had been your daughter would you allow me to go back to such a man?
Yemi: everything is not always black or white my daughter
Me: that's already an answer to my question, I'm sorry but I don't think I'll come back to this marriage
Yemi: I understand you you are still hurt and angry about what my stupid son did but please for the old woman that I am try to consider coming back with your husband even if it has to take time
Me: mom I have a lot of respect for you but don't ask me for something that is beyond my strength, once again it's not up to you to fix his nonsense, the day he becomes a man I maybe i can, maybe think about forgiving him or getting back with him but for now i want to end this marriage
Yemi: I still feel love in your words despite all this suffering you are experiencing so I know there is always hope for your couple, even though I know that what I am asking of you is very difficult to do, try to put some water in your wine, I know that normally it's up to my son to look for you all over town and sincerely apologize for his horrible behavior but it's up to you to do it because you are a woman, the heart of a woman is a heart that forgives, it is a heart that despite the pain and the wounds knows how to see the good where everyone sees the bad, take the time to heal and we'll talk about it
Me: Mom I don't want him chasing me, I'm really sorry for not going in the same direction as you, but all I want from your son is that he free me things he has already done I prefer to continue my journey help me have peace, I think I deserve at least that, also think a little about me
Yemi: I'm really sorry that you think what I'm doing is only for the benefit of my son, but I'm thinking of you two, you are like a daughter to me and I will never advise you to come back to this marriage if I think my son will never do you any good, like I said take some time to calm down we'll discuss it again
Me (resigned): ok, that's understood, have a good day
I quickly hang up before she adds anything else, I don't see why she wants to force me to stay with her son, I have no intention of going back to this house
End of flashback
Since that day, I haven't called him back, nor have I answered his calls or insistent messages, I prefer to stay away from them all, I don't want to end up going back to this man in spite of myself because that I didn't want to say no to his mother, I prefer to continue my little life in the calm that I ended up finding
I had just left the office when I saw Mariam's husband arrive, this sorry man but I never felt him, he always had his face closed and did not greet anyone again this time, he passed us and is came into his wife's office with a bang, maybe it's because I'm angry with Khalil that I'm transferring to the other men, but I find this guy so rude, I don't feel it so much that I I don't even want to find myself in the same room as him I find that he rots the atmosphere but what is the strangest thing is Mariam's behavior when her husband is around, she tenses up, I don't see the exchange of glances between them nor that spark you see in the eyes of a woman in love and I almost have the impression that he is terrorizing her
Surely I'm exaggerating a bit, it's not because Khalil and I were super tactile, hot rabbits that everyone has to be too, each couple lives their life as they see fit and according to their rules
I have never asked Mariam any questions about her marriage either and she never talks about her husband either, she discusses all the subjects apart from this one so in order not to seem indiscreet I never went on this land either anyway I don't have to ask myself any questions about his couple, I who am the couple expert here we have just put my body outside without notice, as long as this Gustave stays away from me that go
Talking about Mariam here she comes in my office
Mariam: darling I'm going to have to leave you I'm really sorry
Me: don't worry, I just saw your husband arrive, you can leave, I manage
Mariam: you really save my life, I would have enjoyed staying but I have no choice
Me (smiling): don't worry, there's not much, I just have to finish this plan and go home too
Mariam taking a break: are you sure you are well?
Me: why this question?
Mariam: you look so pale, I hope I'm not asking too much of you
Me: it's just because I have trouble sleeping at night, don't worry about me
Mariam: ok, see you tomorrow, kisses!
Me: go kisses!
Speaking of which, I've been having a really hard time sleeping at night lately, plus I have gastric reflux and bloating, I have to stop this bad habit of eating late, especially since it makes me fat
