Marry in spite of myself
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Chapter 20
Nabilla
I'm so tired of all these accusations, I thought I'd left all of this behind, and reliving it all really upsets me.
I confess that I never thought that things would turn out like this, I never would have thought that I would have fallen in love with my husband and that I would even have thought of spending the rest of my days with him.
This man I love him the most today, I can't think of my future without him with me, I must admit that for once this man who calls himself my uncle has brought me happiness in my life and I'm sure that if he had known that I would have been happy in this marriage he would have proposed his own daughter, this man he does not love me and does not make the effort to hide it from me
I know that Khalil didn't ask me the question badly but I felt accused, I prefer to isolate myself in my corner to calm down a bit, I didn't expect to be overwhelmed with so many emmottions in reliving it all
I was sitting trying to calm down when I see the door open and let my handsome husband appear with a tray in his hand, I really don't know what good I could have done to deserve such a husband, sometimes I'm so scared that I'll wake up one day and find it was a dream and never was.
Khalil putting the tray on the bedside table: your aunt sent soup for you, I just heated it
Me: since when do you know how to use the gas stove?
Khalil: I used the microwave
Me (giggling): Since when has the great Ben ATAL been serving others?
Khalil: you forget it's my wife it's about, I can even cook you something to eat if necessary
Me: Do you want to kill me yet?
Khalil: don't you think I can?
Me: yes but I risk ending up in the hospital, you would have been perfect if you knew how to cook
Khalil: I can learn just for you… I'm really sorry for using that tone, I didn't have to take my anger out on you, you are in no way responsible for what happened, it's you are rather the victim and I find that your gesture towards your aunt was very commendable
Me: you don't have to apologize, I'm really sorry for getting carried away like this, bad habits are very tenacious
Khalil: on the one hand I should thank those two for putting you in my life, I will always be grateful to them, you are the best thing that ever happened to me
Me: I'm rather the luckiest, you brought colors to my sad life my love, I love you so much
Khalil: I love you even more but you should take your soup, it will get cold
He brings the bowl of soup closer
Me: It's very good, do you want to taste it?
Khalil: it's not me who's suffering, you know what your aunt said to me today?
Me no…
Khalil: she says you are suffering from an illness that will last for the next 9 months
Me (giggling): that's typical of my aunt, she's super indiscreet
Khalil: it's the same with my mother, she made the same remark to me this morning
Me: don't worry I'm not pregnant
Khalil: but I would like to have a child, a child who represents a part of both of us, the realization of our love, what do you think?
Me: I would really like to carry our baby
Khalil: so it tells you that we start by conceiving our baby
Me (giggling): you let me at least finish my soup?? I'm super hungry
Khalil: of course, finish your soup
Am super happy, I tried to keep my face in front of him but deep down I'm already jumping for joy, I didn't know he would want to have a child with me so soon, ooooh my God I'm super happy, if everything is going well by next year we will have our baby, I will be able to carry life
A life that will represent the love we have for each other, a little one that will unite us even more
Me: I would like to have a girl and you?
Khalil: I don't really have a preference, plus I want to create a football team so we'll have time to have both girls and boys
Me (shock): you're not serious
Khalil: you do not adhere to my project?
Me: not at all, I want max 3 children
Khalil: you want 3 children and I 11, I think the rest of the children I have to have, my second wife will give them to me
Me: are you crazy?
Khalil giggling: I was just making you walk, it's your body, we'll have as many children as you can carry
Me: I thought I was going to have to kill you and then kill myself
Khalil: how so?
Me: the day you drag your eyes too much on a woman, I'll tear them out myself, do you understand? you can only see me and think only of me, understand?
Khalil: at your command chief
We both giggle, to tell the truth there is no question that I share my man with someone else, he is mine alone even if I am Muslim and that the religion allows him to have 4 wives , it is out of the question that I share my husband
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Khalil
I just arrived at work this morning with all the energy possible, I'm ready to tackle all the files I have to deal with this morning
I was hard at work when Abdel opened the door
Abdel: hello old man
me: hello
Abdel: you are really rare lately, the children really miss you
Me (stopping what I'm doing): you're right, I haven't seen them in a while, tell them I'm going to spend the week with their new aunt
Abdel: I have the impression that there is something to change in you
Me: that's called love dear
Abdel giggling: I'm so happy to see you like that, I feel like I've found you a few years earlier, it really makes you feel good
Me: she made me a new man, a man who wants to live, to have children, to start a family
Abdel: I'm very happy for you, I think we should have a party to better welcome him
Me: yes I think about it, we are planning our wedding
Abdel: I hope I will be invited
Me (laughing): can there be a party or a wedding without you?
Abdel: you have an interest
The secretary entering: sorry to disturb you sir but there is a package which has just arrived for you and it is marked urgent, reason for which I allow myself to disturb you
Me: put it down, I'll open it a little later
She puts the package down and goes out closing the door behind her, I really admit that I don't know who it could be but it doesn't tell me anything worth this package
Abdel: you don't open it? who could it be from?
Me: I don't really know, but hey, I'm curious
I start by opening the package under the watchful eye of Abdel, but what I take out of this package almost leads me to have a heart attack, but what is that?
Abdel: what is it? why are you making that face?
I stay static, stay I can't get a single word out of my mouth how is this possible, how could she do such a thing to me? how could she let herself be touched by such a lesser than nothing?
Abdel taking the envelope from my hands: ooooh my God, calm down brother, it may be montages, so calm down
Me: I understand better why this less than nothing is in Lomé? was that his plan? but I'm sure it's not a montage, she wouldn't have taken this risk by sending me montage images of my wife kissing another knowing full well what she runs as a risk
I get up I take the envelope and I go home...
