EXPLAINING
"Wow, I can't believe it, you know, I actually kinda hate Susan. I kept telling my sister how she's rude and how she whores around.
Look, Susan is just like that; either you become strong, or this school breaks you. And after what Violet did to her, I don't think she'll want to trust anyone again."
I hate that most of us have this class together, English. "Alright, so who can tell me what synonyms are?" Violet raised up her hand to answer.
"Wow, can't you let anyone else answer the question? You like making everyone feel dumb when actually you're the dumb one," Susan said.
"Stop calling her dumb, Suzy. You're the dumb one," I defended Violet.
"Whoa, so you actually talk, and my name is not Suzy. Don't you ever call me that, you dead brain." That's it, before I knew it, my sister threw the paper on her, and we all started
arguing and almost fighting.
"Shut up, all of you, you know what? All of you, detention by the end of this class."
"But sir, I didn't do anything."
"I don't care. I want you all to work on your issues. You are almost a graduate. Is this how you would keep behaving once you leave this school? Don't you know somebody here might be your helper in the future? I want you all to sit here and
think very hard about what I've said."
"So, are we going to talk or not?" Violet asked everyone.
"What do you want us to talk about, dumb ass?"
"Stop it, Susan. We really need to talk about ourselves."
"We all have a lot of secrets, and nobody wants to say anything. Especially the twins," Susan said, glaring at us.
"What do you mean?"
"I mean, you guys behave like you don't care, like, you own the school or something. You just started this school... when? Monday, right? And everyone in this school is talking about how hot, and pretty you girls are.
I have been at this school for so long, and nobody notices me how they do with you girls. If I walk into a room, everyone would be like, yes, it's Susan, some won't even be interested in what I'm wearing, but you, when you come in, everyone turns and stares at you like you're the only beautiful girl."
"So, let me get this, you're jealous of my sister and me. Is that what you're saying?"
"No! Am jealous of the fact that you didn't try being my friend; instead, you went for this backstabbing bitch." She glared at Violet, who just sat
there quietly.
"Look, I told you I am sorry, okay, I didn't mean to hurt you guys, please forgive me. Can't we just start over again, Susan? I really want to be your friend."
"You think I would fall for that shit again? Never! I don't want to be your friend."
"Why do you have so much bitterness in you? Why can't you trust anyone?"
"Because she's the first girl that hurt me before."
"Whoa, did you just say girl?" She nods, "like a girlfriend?" She blushes.
"Oh my gosh, you're gay as well?!" Chad shouted.
"No, you idiot, I am bi."
"What happened?" I ask. Me being me, always wanting to know everyone's love life.
"Well, you see, after I left this town, I went to stay with my grandparents, but your mother told us you were staying with your aunt," Susan said.
"And you believe that lying bitch."
"I stayed with my grandparents; they are nice people. I went to this school. I never felt welcomed here, but this girl A was the first person to talk to me. She's so beautiful and so caring. Even though her friends tried telling her not to talk to me, she refused to listen to them.
You know she even got detention because I was being bullied by her friends. She punched him so badly, he had to go to the hospital. She was punished a lot because of me, but she didn't care. You know she was the first person to make me realize that I liked girls. I fell in love with her. I even told her I was gay through a movie." Why do I get a feeling that this sounds familiar?
"Can I ask a question?" Chad said.
"No! I am not answering any questions and am not going into details about our movie night, Chad." She said when she noticed Chad smiling like he wants to know
everything.
"Can I continue?"
"Yes," we answered. So when we were thirteen, I think, my friends threatened to tell everyone that I liked girls.
I got scared. Debby, her best friend, told me to reject A when she tried asking me out. I wanted to tell A what was going on, but she warned me against telling her. I haven't told anyone about my sexuality except A, so I felt betrayed thinking she told Debby.
When I asked Debby who told her, she said it was A. When A asked me to be her girlfriend, I rejected her and ran away, thinking she wanted everyone to know my sexuality. I knew very well that Debby was following us.
So I had to reject her while I was running. Debby's brother grabbed me and kissed me. I was shocked. I found out that they were trying to separate us. Debby was in love with A, but I guess I was in the way, and they wanted me out. Ever since that day, A refused to talk to me. When I came back, I just wanted someone to be there for me, someone I can trust, but this idiot was just using me." She pointed at Violet.
"If you know what is good for you, Maddy, you stay away from her," she said and left the class. Violet came to me.
"Please, Maddy, don't listen to her. I am truly sorry. Please let me explain." She tried holding my hand.
"No! Don't touch me. I have to go."
